You ever realize that when you do something for someones else, some one that you really care about and dont want to hurt.  That the person you are trying to protect gets through unscathed, while you are left bleeding and bruised.  And it seems like that person never understands it, you just sacrificed for them, but to them you just screwed up and didn't care about their feelings.  Good people always get demonized, good people seem to have the most to lose, then say an asshole or a player, or a user.  So meet the bad man, the guy/girl your mom always warns you about the nice one who cares about your feelings, and integrety.  Do your self a favor and steer away from these people, find a nice guy/girl who takes what they can get and then leaves you hanging, trust me youll do a lot better.   

Our lives play out like the bars of a symphony each note is a moment in your life.  The crescendos and decrescendos the rising and falling of the importance of the event.  The whole notes are lingering moments things you never forget a lost love, the passing of a loved one, falling in love, a moment of epiphany.  Then as the end nears everything slows, the song replays bits from the beginning, you see your past. See where you have been, who you have touched and who has touched you, and then finally the grandiose rise and then....nothing.  But the echo, the sound resonating around the room, see even when the music stops and the lights fade out the sound, your deeds still remain. The good... and even the bad.  But what could be as grand as a life, we all only have one, so live it love it learn from it, teach from it.  There are a million past futures, and where there is a birth there is a life and where there is life, there is death, but even in the shortest of time, you have affected something some where.  We all come to this life with nothing, but when you leave it was with nothing but love, everything else the material things, and all that ..crap is just borrowed. 

 

 

I sit here still thinking about Melissa everyday every second my mind is racing with thoughts of her, but idk I love her.

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In one single moment your whole life can turn 'round
I stand there for a minute starin' straight into the ground
Lookin' to the left slightly, then lookin' back down
World feels like it's caved in - proper sorry frown
Please let me show you where we could only just be, for us
I can change and I can grow or we could adjust
The wicked thing about us is we always have trust
We can even have an open relationship, if you must
I look at her she stares almost straight back at me
But her eyes glaze over like she's lookin' straight through me
Then her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity
When they open up she's lookin' down at her feet

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

So then I move my hand up from down by my side
It's shakin', my life is crashin' before my eyes
Turn the palm of my hand up to face the skies
Touch the bottom of her chin and let out a sigh
'Cause I can't imagine my life without you and me
There's things I can't imagine doin', things I can't imagine seein'
It weren't supposed to be easy, surely
Please, please, I beg you please
She brings her hands up towards where my hands rested
She wraps her fingers round mine with the softness she's blessed with
She peels away my fingers, looks at me and then gestures
By pushin' my hand away to my chest, from hers

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

And I'm just standin' there, I can't say a word
'Cause everythin's just gone
I've got nothin'
Absolutely nothin'

Tryin' to pull her close out of bare desperation
Put my arms around her tryin' to change what she's sayin'
Pull my head level with hers so she might engage in
Look into her eyes to make her listen again
I'm not gonna fuckin', just fuckin' leave it all now
'Cause you said it'd be forever and that was your vow
And you're gonna let our things simply crash and fall down
You're well out of order now, this is well out of town
She pulls away, my arms are tightly clamped round her waist
Gently pushes me back and she looks at me straight
Turns around so she's now got her back to my face
Takes one step forward, looks back, and then walks away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

I know in the past I've found it hard to say
Tellin' you things, but not tellin' straight
But the more I pull on your hand and say
The more you pull away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now.